I think all creatives go through this at one time or another. I'm experiencing some of it right now, having to invest in the new glass studio and purchasing specialized equipment while simultaneously learning a whole new creative discipline of Verre églomisé and then taking that archaic creative discipline out of it's historical context and making it my own - it's a lot to deal with emotionally when I'm undermining myself with doubt every step of the way.
There are so many unknowns when doing something like this. What if I suck at it? My first experiment was a complete disaster. Then I came up with a new idea for it - but what if that turns out to be a disaster too? Should I just go back to pen and paper, where it's safe?
I had a college instructor in the digital arts who used to tell us that we were not on "the cutting edge" - we were on "the bleeding edge" and that is how it feels sometimes when you are out there facing the unknown at every turn, experimenting and investing in an unseen conclusion to your work. While it truly is exhilarating - it is also very scary and opens to the door negative self talk and imposter syndrome. "I'm not worth the investments in time and money I am making to see if this works."
Jono makes such a key point here - one has to move through it. Use it as a self- observation tool rather than a hindrance to creativity and work.
I have a favorite saying that I'll apply here -
"When you find yourself going through hell
- keep going!"
Until next time ... here's an appropriate song LOL - The Who with "Who Are You?"